i have seen

"closer"


for the 8th time. i missed watching it. it makes me feel things that i would not dare to feel. it makes me bold in saying things to myself, that i would be scared to say. confronting yourself is harder than anyhing.

i missed

"cooking"

now that i got the internship that i wanted, i can whine about something else. 

i wake up early and come home not so late but tired. and there is no one home, meaning that no one to cook for.

last summer i went to an eco-village for a week. yes: no electricity, no signal, no nothing. but there was a cute open kitchen with not so many ingredients available. i now remember and realize that even though it's just pasta, i really liked cooking in there. 

R.I.P.

"amy winehouse"

"we only said goodbye with words

i died a hundred times."

i love

"summer"

espacially if i'm having a quiet vacation somewhere near the sea. with really cold sangria, white wine, limoncello or whatever. and not carrying around my canon but using instagram instead. not the best idea, still quite practical.

i find

"old photos"


from vintage and antique shops. i don't know who the people are but, actually not knowing the story makes it more exciting. i can just make them up.
the photos are small. like 5*10 cm or so. and they are quite old.

 this photo was the first one that i bought. it initiated my collection in a way. i really like it.

 about this one, i liked the genuine attitude and outlook of these young men.

 this seems like the man kissed her right before the photographer pressed the button. maybe it was the first time he kissed her. who knows.

this photo seems like a  movie scene. also the light and the sharpness of the details are quite nice.

i missed

"listening to monochrome"

i have seen

"dandelion"


for 2 or 3 times before. i can watch it again i guess. but not as into it as i was in my last years of high school. it felt different back then. i'm sure it would feel different now. 
it was (and is) a great movie. calm but in a knowingly irritating way sometimes. scenes and landscapes are great. music! it is wonderful! 
dandelion is one of the movies that i loved the soundtracks of.

you should listen:

it's a wonderful life -by- sparklehorse

i found a reason -by- cat power

edit: i now realize that the boy is vincent kartheiser, pete campbell of madmen!